12 September 2019

I have graced this earth for 71 years plus 17 days not counting the months developing inside my precious mother.  I gone through so many changes over those many decades; some good; some not so good.  All of the changes have made me into the person I am today.  I am not everyone’s pick of a perfect daughter.  I certainly was not my former husband’s perfect wife.  I was a struggling single mother from the time my youngest son was ten months old.  I worked many long hours to make ends meet especially when there was no child support coming in or when it didn’t cover their needs. Many days I had migraine heads from the stress and long hours working and caring for my three sons.  That didn’t make for an example of a perfect mother.  I made many mistakes during that season of my life.   Did I feel sorry for myself?  I guess some days I did but it’s all water under the bridge now.  I’m on the other side of that time of life.

I worked for almost 39 years for the Federal Government and I’ve been retired now for almost nine years.  Life has been a rollercoaster ride for sure.  When I was working, I worked hard and poured myself into each job I had.  I loved working but I was not a perfect employee either.  In fact, I’m perfect at anything although I guess I’ve tried to be but even that proved to be imperfect.

I thought I’d write a few of my thoughts each day, if I can, so my sons, daughters-in-love, and grandchildren can know the person I am to me.  I can be real to myself because there’s no risk when no one may ever read this blog.  Today is a start and we will see where it goes from here.

Edlina Fairbanks was my pen name when I was a teenager and budding writer.  Not many people use a pseudo name to publish their writings any more.  I am me none-the-less, Mary Everlyn Hyde Johnson.